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[09 Apr 2007|05:31pm] |
This definitely blows.
So now I'm stillll sitting at home...chillin'....while they're all out having sick ass times lol.. Crap.
Plus I have to work in lhalf an hour.
Matt's out having good times.
All those kids are out having good times with Brian=(.
I'm working because I wasn't allowed to book it off according to Nana.
PISSED. That is all. Thanks.
I'm tired of fighting with people and trying so hard and everything.
I'm exhausted and excited for Washington because it's a break from everything and everyone andd thattt is what I need.
I feel.
Anyway.
Cooool.
Kkthxbye.
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35 unknown facts/secrets about yourself:
1. When was the last time you washed your hair?
this morning
2.What were you doing at 8am this morning?
blowdrying my hair.. sorta
3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
checking facebook.. lol
4. Are you any good at math?
definitely not
5. Are you single?
yeaaa
6. What are you doing this weekend?
Friday hangouts, Saturday work and then hangouts, Sunday working on isu, gym, hangouts? lol
7. Are you mad at anyone right now?
No
8. Do you know the words to the song on ur Profile?
do I have a song on my profile? I.. I don't even remember.
9. Last thing received in mail?
mail mail? University letter of some kind.
10. How many different drinks have you had today?
2. water/diet pepsi
11. Who are you dating?
je suis alone lol
12. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine?
yup
13. Any plans for tonight?
It's 12 so.. no lol. well technically tonight is like.. Wednesday.. so yea.. I'm babysitting.
14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
always
16. What's outside your front door?
porch, hedges, car, driveway, street
17. Do you have plans on friday night?
yea.. sort of. It depends.
18. Do you like the ocean?
Uhmmm kinda.
19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different popcorn?
No... lol
20. What are you wearing?
wal-mart tank top, billabong sweater, random pj pants.. i think giant tiger, anddd that is it.
21. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
I think. A blow up one? lol
22.are you excited about something?
To go to Guelph next year.
23. Who around you has the most problems?
ME lol kidding. there are plenty of people with WAY more problems.
24. Are your great-grandparents still alive?
just my great grandma on my dads side. shes like 90
25. Do you love your life?
for the most part. at the moment. I won't like.. tomorrow. lol
26. Where do you keep your change?
in my purse or in this cute paris thing tracys momma gave me
27. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
I yell things a lot. bahaha. I don't remember. OH January.. play? yea?
28. Do you like anyone right now?
bahaha its complicated
29. What was the weather like on your birthday?
I don't remember. Warm i think
30. Do you sleep with the door open or closed at night?
open, i have to let my kitty in or he knocks on the door loudly and wakes me up in the middle of the night.
31. If you could change your name, what would it be?
anything but Tabitha? lol fuck
32. Do you like your middle name?
I dont know.. sounds a little hickish.. but its fiiine lol
33. What are you thinking about right now?
walking home from school last winter being infatuated loving every step of the way.
34. Do you like your bestfriend's family?
sure lol
35. Favorite food?
chicken lol
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[26 Feb 2007|10:23pm] |
To Do:
-finish english ISU, step 2
-english speech (coming up soooon)
west&world:
-read chapter/make mind map
-read next seminar
-finish napoleon essay
-finish napoleon poster
-study for test
sci fi:
-film essay
-test
-back board design
+:
-semi
-missys birthday woo
-work friday
-memorize lines for play&rehearsal
-jazz choir rehearsal
-regular choir rehearsal
-....see people?
GOOD TIMES!
I love liiiifE@!!
lol
p.s. I dyed my hair black tonight... accidentally, its awesome lol. only not, im pretty upset about it, but whatever.
It was supposed to be just like.. dark brown.
Fackkk lol
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[14 Feb 2007|11:34pm] |
you don't have to write perfect prose and poetic phrases to be a writer.
you don't have to do those things to be a dreamer.
why does someone need to be impressed by you to want to befriend you?
I don't think I'm a good friend to anyone.
Like, to any of my friends.. or family for that matter.
Maybe I need to cut some ties and focus more on the people directly surrounding me.
I can't balance.
I don't have time.
And the survey says... I'm the most stressed person in my sci fi class bahaha.
I suck.
That is all.
Happy VD.
♥
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[01 Feb 2007|10:32pm] |
i HATE looking at old livejournal posts/comments/etc.
Just sayin'
And work is gay.
Yea.
♥
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[31 Jan 2007|12:58am] |
So I got off work at 9 tonight, and immediately went to see a movie.
Shanna, Amanda (Jones), and I saw Pan's Labyrinth.
Let me just tell you, that movie captivated me in a way I never thought possible.
It's filmed in Spanish with English subtitles, but after the first 30 seconds you don't even realize you're reading anymore.
The movie just absorbs your attention.
It's not just a fairy tale, like I thought it was.
It was extremely gory in parts and I spent half the movie covering my face with either shock, disbelief, or fright.
I was on the edge of my seat the entire time, and I highly recommend that every person take the time out of their week or month or whatever, to sit down for a couple of hours and enjoy it the way I did.
This honestly allowed me to see what filmmakers really are capable of.
Just,wow.
Moving on. (from my random movie review.. my bad).
This week has been a lot better than I had expected.
It's only going to get better, too =).
Tomorrow is Wednesday, which means sick ass plans all day lol.
Malling, Japanese food and lots of movies? I think so.
Thursday will consist of costuming, whatever, and then work, but I'm okay with that lol.
Friday will be sweet times in the morning I'm sure.. then 4pm-Sunday... GUELPH!!!!!
I've been waiting to go back to Guelph, well.. since I left last like March or April or w/e it was haha.
I get to see (and sleep with ;)-as in, I'm going to snuggle Nik's face off) people who make my life. I'm pumped.
Things are just working out far too well for me lately, which scares me because I'm convinced that it's all going to balance itself out and things will get really hard soon.
Maybe it's just balancing itself out now.
I mean, I did have an intensely shitty semester consisting of having my heart broken, hardly seeing most of my friends, dealing with a lot of family issues, and being the most stressed I've ever been.
Hmm.
Well, we'll see how things go from here ^_^.
Anyway, I hope all is well with everyone.
Have a good one. ♥
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[24 Jan 2007|09:30pm] |
"Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers"
JESUS I LOVE THIS CD SOOO MUCH!
So all of mes examens are finished except 1!!!!! Just 10 minutes of oral left to do, ahahaha.
As in my oral french exam lol.
Today was cool.
Got a sweet compliment from Mr.Taylor and Mr.Corrigan that made like.. my high school vocal life, to be honest.
I'm also in a play for like drama now that's actually pretty sweet. Kinda nervous about it but whatevs, good times.
Andd I have a monologue to perform on wellness day if I can ever actually make it to the meetings.
Andd apparently a microdrama I wrote in Writer's Craft is being performed that day?
That's pretty sick.
I feel like I'm actually getting recognition for stuff this year, it's really surprising considering most of my high school career has been spent just.. being like.. average I guess.
My point is, I feel accomplished lol.
My nana told me today to stay back in high school another year.
Discuss.
That is all, kkthxbye.
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"So hum hallelujah
Just don't forget a reason
I thought I loved you
It's just how you looked in the light
A teenage vow in a parking lot
Til tonight do us part
I've seen the blues
And I've swallowed them too"
I LOVE THE NEW FALL OUT BOY ALBUM AND I LOVE SAM FOR BRINGING IT TO ME AND FOR CLAIMING THE 4' POSTER AT HMV FOR ME. SAM=GOD.
I have to be giddy about something, I just spent the past 9 hours working. Seriously. Holy fucking shit.
We better get mad good marks on that facking magazine god damnit.
Anyway.
BRACES OFF IN 11 HOURS!
SHITTTT!!!!!
I'ma post before and after pictures and you'll be all :|.
Yea.
This marks the end of an era in the life of Tabitha.
Some major changes need to be made now, I think.
Well, they're already being made, but still.. moreso.
I love life.
I'm so busy and it's ridiculously difficult but I know it'll all pay off in the end.
Even if I don't manage to get ridiculously high marks, at least I know that I've tried so hard and I've definitely grown as a person and realized some of my potential.
I've also felt pretty good about myself in the past while. I've put myself down less, and meant it. I don't know how to explain it, but yea. It's sweet. And I'll feel even better about myself tomorrow at like noon when my teeth are free from train tracks EEEEE!!!! Okay.. seriously that's all. GOODNIGHT!
"So long live the car crash hearts."
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[07 Jan 2007|11:23am] |
So the break is almost over.
It had probably been the busiest two weeks of my life.
Christmas, shopping, costuming every day, seeing friends as much as possible, a little bit of work, and then 4 shows. Absolutely brutal, but overall it was fantastic.
I must say that last night was probably one of the funnest nights ever.
Spanish Panic #2 owned all.
"Oh, that's a rolly pea"
Mr.Corrigan shaving his head, putting on make-up, and just being the king. Ohhh man.
Then there were the guys ravaging our change room in their tights.
Just, hilarious times were had by all lol.
Thank you so much to everyone who came out to see it, it honestly meant so much to me!
I'm so proud of everything that happened in that show, Saturday night was stellar.
Moving on...
I just got in from having breakfast with Brian.
Let me just say, saying goodbye to him again was brutal.
I know I'll see him again in April but, my god, that just sucked.
I finally patch things up with the boy and then its like "laterrrrr".
Blahfuck.
So now I'm going to catch up on sleep, seeing as I only got 4 hours of it last night.
I stayed up super late hanging out with my mommy lol, she came down to see my show with her new boyfriend and their 2 puppies, SOOOO cute.
Anyway, I was up mad late and now I'm going to have a nice long nap with Tom, because he missed me, I can tell lmao.
SO TIRED!
Okay.
That is all.
BYEBYEEE!
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[27 Dec 2006|01:26am] |
I feel soooo much better after today.
I'm not getting into it but like.. I feel like I'm actually moving forwards now.
I'm changing the way I want to change.
I'm living the way that I want to live.
I love Snow Patrol.eee and The Fray.
Just sayin'.
I bought new clothes.
And movies and music.
I'm happy with my purchases.
I love Boxing Day.
3 shirts, a billabong sweater, a belt, 2 dvds, and a cd all for under $80. WTF =) lol
Yea that's my story. It rocks.
Mmmkay thats all..
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[22 Dec 2006|12:11am] |
As we round the corner to your house you turned to me and said, "I'll be going through withdrawal of you for this one night we have spent.
And I want to speak these words but I guess I'll just bite my tongue, and accept someday, somehow, as the words that we'll hang from."
And I, I don't want to speak these words.
Cause I, I don't want to make things any worse.
Why does tonight have to end?
Why don't we hit restart and pause it at our favorite parts
We'll skip the goodbyes.
If I had it my way I'd turn the car around and run away.
Just you and I.
The gifts you're receiving from me will be:
one awkward silence.
two hopes you cry yourself to sleep staying up waiting by the phone.
and all i want this year is for you to dedicate your last breath to me before you bury yourself alive.
Don't come home for Christmas
You're the last thing I wanna see underneath the tree
Merry Christmas, I could care less
were it not for hearts like mine,
calloused thickly,
you could fall, but don't you dare slow down for me.
you can take everything I have, just don't leave my sight, no, don't leave my sight.
cause your words hit like a train and i cant ignore it
this moment could be our last
you fall in love and im running after
you move way too fast.
joke me something awful just like kisses on the necks of best friends
we're the kids who feel like dead ends
and i want to be known for my hits not just my misses
i took a shot and didnt even come close
at trust and love and hope
and the poets are just kids who didnt make it
and never had it at all
and the record wont stop skipping
and the lies just wont stop slipping
and besides my reputations on the line
we can fake it for the airwaves
force our smiles,
baby half dead from comparing myself to everyone else around me
please put the doctor on the phone cause im not making any sense
blame anyone but me for this mess
and my back keeps on breaking from this heavy heart
we've never seen so far
im hopelessly hopeful you're just hopeless enough
but we.never.had.it.at.all.
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[20 Dec 2006|07:31pm] |
I need to surround myself with people who ACTUALLY give a shit about me.
I feel so distant from life.
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[19 Dec 2006|11:23pm] |
My stepmom showed up at my nana's house at 2am last night.
I'm not going into details about where she was.
But it's retarded.
Andd that's all I have to say.
Christmas shopping is like.. 75% complete.
5 or 6 more presents to buy! I'm satisfied with the stuff I got today though.
Yeup.
That's all.
♥
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[18 Dec 2006|05:03pm] |
24 hours and we've still heard nothing.
A very very rough night/day.
I'm looking forward to the same thing happening tonight, so that's fantastic.
Mmmhmm.
4 days until Christmas break.
Pleeease God help me make it through.
That is all.
♥
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[18 Dec 2006|10:57am] |
I was up until 5am.
Last night, I drove from Markham- Pickering. Pickering-Markham. Markham-Pickering.
My stepmom has been missing since about 4pm yesterday.
Yea we're actually starting to worry now.
If anyone sees a 95 toyota corolla(I think), red, with a crazy woman inside.. could ya let me know? Thanks.
Yea... Merrrrry Christmas....
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[17 Dec 2006|10:21pm] |
Hey. My life is FUCKED..UP...
ye.
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[12 Dec 2006|10:34pm] |
I'm attracting the wrong type of people.
It's been a good night for making me feel good about myself but, damn! This is a little annoying.
Anyway.
After the wonderful rant I had yesterday I just wanted to let you all know that I did serve said detention.
I sat in the office, on display in that glass room, and worked on my homework for half an hour.
The time went by extremely quickly and it was fine.
My only issue was that for like.. half of the detention I was sitting there trying to think of ways to get back at those assholes.
Then I realized that there was no way.
I want to stand up against everything they're doing to our school, but there's nothing I can do about it without causing major problems in my life.
Hell, I'm considering becoming a teacher. One day I might actually have to work for those assholes.
So, I'm gonna grin and bear it.
You know why?
Karma.
I am a firm believer that what goes around comes around.
One day, they'll get theirs.
They'll put kids through all of this crap, but they go home to a wife or husband that doesn't love them, or they're totally alone.
Maybe their child is going through the same crap at their school.
Whatever the case, something will happen to them.
You and I may never see it, but it's true.
Now I know I'm making a big deal out of something small, but it was just something that really got to me.
I've heard so many complaints since Belanger left, and now I'm having first hand experience with it.
The tree in our front hallway is a CHRISTMAS tree, not a holiday tree.
Rent-A-Grad is not making kids slaves for a day.
Letting go of balloons outside for a racism video is not a bad thing.
RELAX.
That's all I'm going to say for now, unless I think of something else.
But before I go, a big thank you to Diana who ran into the office twice trying to find ways to get me out of my detention haha, you're wonderful.
Have a good one.
♥
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Fuck Markville Secondary School.
I hate our fucking administration this year.
I hate them.
I went home at lunch on Friday and decided not to go back for French.
My nana forgets to call in, so I bring a note today.
They take it, whatever, good times, and then Mrs.Fucking cock face Penny Allen says, "You have a half hour detention to serve."
"Why?"
"Because you didn't sign out on Friday."
"So?"
"Well then you have to serve a detention."
"Why?"
"It's policy."
"I brought in a note, my grandma clearly said in the note that she forgot to call. She approved my absence, whats the problem here?"
"Well it's considered a truancy if you leave school property and don't sign out."
"People leave school property all the time."
"Yes, but you didn't call in."
"Nobody ever calls in at lunch to say that they're going to the mall or something...so what's the difference?"
"You missed class, we're accountable for you until 3."
"My guardian knows I missed class, I was sick, she's approving it, what's the issue?"
"Well you have to sign out and she has to call in."
"Yea but she wrote in the note that she forgot. So shouldn't my grandma technically be serving the detention?"
"Well its policy, you have to serve the detention."
"Well your policy is ridiculous and unfair."
"It's just policy, I'm just doing my job here."
"This is ridiculous" *storms out*.
My nana even called in and talked to Mr.Magoo..er sorry.. Mr.Bewcyk. He said the same fucking shit, "It's policy". Well then clearly your policy is fucking retarded.
I'm insanely pissed over this.
Unfortunately I'm stuck with a stupid fucking detention that I don't even have time for, so that's phenomenal.
What do they think they're accomplishing by making me sit in the office for half an hour?
Oh no, I have to sit, that's awful.
Like seriously fuck off.
Anyone considering going near MSS, forget about it. It's a retarded fucking school and I can't wait until 6 months from now when I'm out of that fucking hellhole.
So Markville, take your holiday tree, your retarded administration, and your stupid fucking policies and shove them up your ass.
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[10 Dec 2006|10:40pm] |
I feel like shit.
I've left like 4 people hanging in the past 2 days without even meaning to.
I feel like such a shitty friend lately.
There's just too much going on. And I'm always like "meh..people won't care if I'm around".
It doesnt help that I'm hopped up on this random flu medecine so I'm all loopy and I'm not 100% sure whats going on anymore...wooo.
French homework is the devil.
Mirrrr.
I need to sleep for like 3 straight days.
Forget the world and go into a cuccoon.
15 days until Christmas.
I have 22 people to shop for. I have done no shopping whatsoever. Ugggh fuck.
I'm lame at work. I get all giggly sometimes and it's retarded. Good times.
Mehmehmeh.
I like our situation at the moment btw. I'm feelin' better now. Wooo.
lalala.
Bed time.
Night.
♥
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[09 Dec 2006|12:04am] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT DEVLIN!!!!!!
You are awesommmme and the bestest friend everrrr and I hope you had a phenomenal birthday and you know my present was amazingggg ^_^.
Uhm.. today was alright but kind of ghey at parts but I'm happyyy somewhat.
Because of a talk I had last night and all my feelings are out now, like all the stuff I was keeping bottled up and yea, good times. And now everything is gonna get betttter =) it already is!!!
I skipped French today lol. I didn't have my composition finished and I felt like pure ass and I just.. needed a couple of hours off without having anything to do. I need that realllly badly right now. So I just skipped, my nana was fine with it. Yea, good times.
I am currently at Missy's house and we are sitting on our bums on the computer and it is lovely. We're silly. Uhh yea lol.
Yea I don't know, I'm boring. I don't really have much to update about. Sooo I'm leaving now lol.
BYE BYE ♥
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